Wednesday, June 23, 2004
Closure
It's finally over and done with. We talked about it last night and although I admit I was pretty mean and sarcastic throughout the entire conversation, sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind. Bi, if you do happen to read this at all, I just want to apologize for the way it ended and I hope for only the best for you in your life. It may seem abit cliched and shallow but I say this from the bottom of my heart. As I've said before countless times, just because you're in love with that person, it doesn't necessarily mean you have to be together. I truly believe all this and so many may disagree but then again, that's your prerogative.
I've been single for 4 days after 8 years of back-to-back relationships and I'm relieved. Very very relieved. I no longer need to watch what I say or do for the fear of hurting the one I love. I no longer need to report my whereabouts or explain my actions. I no longer need to fear jealousy. I no longer need to feel inadequate. After so long, I'm doing things for me and not for anyone else. And it's a very good feeling. I am finally free...
It's finally over and done with. We talked about it last night and although I admit I was pretty mean and sarcastic throughout the entire conversation, sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind. Bi, if you do happen to read this at all, I just want to apologize for the way it ended and I hope for only the best for you in your life. It may seem abit cliched and shallow but I say this from the bottom of my heart. As I've said before countless times, just because you're in love with that person, it doesn't necessarily mean you have to be together. I truly believe all this and so many may disagree but then again, that's your prerogative.
I've been single for 4 days after 8 years of back-to-back relationships and I'm relieved. Very very relieved. I no longer need to watch what I say or do for the fear of hurting the one I love. I no longer need to report my whereabouts or explain my actions. I no longer need to fear jealousy. I no longer need to feel inadequate. After so long, I'm doing things for me and not for anyone else. And it's a very good feeling. I am finally free...
