Endless Ranting

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The past few days has been pretty interesting. Went drinking with Siew Yen at Absolut Chemistry on Tuesday night and got pretty high but not drunk, thank God. As I mentioned in my earlier post, I've very low alcohol tolerance level so that night was just another test to prepare me for the rave at Genting!! Woohoo..I can't wait for Saturday.

Got up the next day and met up with Mel for our weekly bitch fest at Starbucks. It was good to see you Mel..you always keep me distracted from unwanted thoughts. Love you babe!!

Then headed off to Sg Wang with Esmond to catch the Miss Malaysia contest. One of his friends, contestant 11, Ivy smth, was taking part in it. He took lots of pictures of all the girls, but I think he was pretty smitten with one of the judges instead. Haha. Sadly, at the end of the contest when he wanted to take a pic together with his friend, my camera ran out of battery. I tried about 3 times but it refused to snap any more pictures. He was pretty bummed. Haha..next time, Esmond! And the ironic thing is, as we got into the car to head off to Jln Alor for some yummy beef ball noodles, I tried once again to take a shot, and it worked!! He wanted to go back to Sg Wang so he could take a pic with her but I convinced him not to. I can be so mean at times. *innocent look* What...it was drizzling already!!! And anyway the last shot looked like it was snowing in KL...ooohh....lovely!

Below are some pics...my fave contestants were numbers 4 and 7. I hope one of them wins something this Saturday at Sunway. Thank God the rave's on Saturday so I won't have to teman Esmond. Hahaha..all the best to them anyhow. Contestant 9 won Miss Body Beautiful last night. I prefer the judge in white..she was so hot! Reminds me of that girl in Smallville, Kirsten Kirk or something like that? Can't remember her name. 

Anyway, enjoy the pics...tho it's a tad dark n blurry and I don't know how to resize them to smth more presentable...:(

Men disgusts me!

I finally got to satisfy my craving for Petaling Street's claypot lo shi fan. Siew Yen over ordered and we ended up not finishing our food. *sigh* What a waste but then it was our fault for being greedy and ordering for 2 people when we knew we wouldn't be able to finish it. It was a great dinner together with good company but too bad the ambience and the environment sucked.

What issit with men anyway? As we were eating, some old foreigner came up to us and actually asked whether he could sit with us. Being distracted by my yummy food I thought he asked for the chair so I nodded and smiled. He then looked at me and said in a really creepy tone, "Are you sure? I can really have this seat?" Come on!!! Then he asked us where we were from so I told him we weren't local.  "Oh I'm looking for local girls. Another time." What the f**k? 

Then just as were about to leave, some guy with a guitar approached us and was saying how pretty we were that he wants to play us a song. Er....ok....Siew Yen nearly cried. He was fumbling with the tuning and all the while he was saying how if he had a sketch pad with him he would sketch us cos we were so beautiful. Oh come on la...what issit with men la? Somebody pls explain it to me. It didn't end there unfortunately. He kept on saying we should sign up as models, or an air stewardess cos "God gave you such beauty, you shouldn't waste it". *sigh* We were contemplating whether we should give him money for all his 'compliments' but he didn't even ask us for money. He just shook our hands and moved on to his next victim. Then as we left, we saw his sidekick with a tamborine asking the next table for money. Hehe...either he was being genuine with us or he overheard us contemplating about giving him a tip.

Hmmm..it's sad also la having to witness these kind of people. People who don't make a good living they have to resort to begging. I don't know whether to feel sorry for them or not. I feel especially sad when I see old people begging for money. I usually give them a dollar fully aware that there's some syndicate involved but I cant help it. I feel so sad for them. *sigh* Call me weak.

Off to Murni now. Looks like I won't be sleeping early afterall. Sorry Melvin. Hehe..

 

Staring into space.Jumbled sentences float about in my brain.Uncomprehending.Fleeting memories.Moonlight settles on an empty space.Eyes adjust to the darkness.Familiar smells drift aimlessly.Fall into an uncertain state of slumber.Eyes flicker just momentarily.Dreams come and go.Memories or dreams?Then the unthinkable happens.Something in me stirs.My eyes open wide.And the whole cycle starts again.

I cannot fall asleep.

Panda-eyed and NOT loving it

What is it with boys and their toys? Not being the tech-savvy girl I hope to be, I was abit awe struck by Keith's latest gadgets which was a PDA and a Dell laptop. So there we were testing out his new Dell baby at Starbucks, trying to fit in with the rest of the tech-savvy people with their canggih looking laptops. Haha. It was good fun last night and we managed to transfer all my photos taken from my phone to his baby so that he can one day email them to me. REMINDER TO KEITH:E-MAIL ME MY PICS PLS!!

Then not wanting to feel left out, I used his PDA to access my MSN and started chatting to someone who was at least online on a Saturday night. Hehe, sorry William. It was hard! Word of advice, never try chatting with a PDA. My eyes were blurry and stung after like 2 minutes from all the squinting. Oh well now at least I can say I've tried it.

Was tossing and turning the whole night, couldn't fall asleep at all. Was in bed by 2am, only to notice the rain at 5am. *sigh* Continued listening to the pitter-patter of rain hoping it'd lull me to sleep but of course, no such luck. I think I must have drifted off to dreamland about 8 something only to be woken about 10.30 by my cousin inviting me for dimsum. I'll never turn down dimsum so off I went bleary eyed and abit stoned to Sri Petaling for some yummy dimsum.

After picking up my car from my aunt's place left Ampang about 1.45pm only to reach home at 3pm. I tell you, jams in KL are the worst! I hate being stuck in traffic. Makes my blood boil and it makes me want to just bang down every motorcyclist I see weaving in and out of traffic. Also the taxi drivers and the buses. So blardy inconsiderate. Not that I'm the best driver in the world but compared to those jerks...I shall not continue. I'm trying very hard nowadays not to blog when I'm feeling pissed.

I'm sleepy but I can't sleep. There's something physically wrong with me cos I can't take naps during the day no matter how tired I am. Anyone with a remedy to this? Have to wait till 7 for dinner with Keith and that's 3 hours away. *yawn* I need to sleep...but I can't fall asleep. Insomnia? Too distracted by unwanted thoughts? Miss someone? Confused and disorientated? I think all of the above. Help me!

MV-filled day

A busy day yesterday. Lunch and movie at MV with Mel. Watched Laws of Attraction starring Pierce Brosnan and Julianne Moore. Guys, don't bother watching this cos it'll bore you to tears. Typical chick-flick, something Mel and I appreciates. Hehe. Then, left about 5.30pm only to go back there with Esmond about 8pm as he had to buy shoes for his friend's wedding. Beat him at car racing at the arcade 4 times! Hah! Beat that! He was pretty bummed about losing to a girl so there's gonna be a rematch in the near future.

Tonight it's dinner with my dad at Basque Lane at Mt Kiara. Hope the food's good. Mel spoke quite highly of it so hopefully won't be too much of a disappointment. Tomorrow is dinner with Keith. Looks like my nights are pretty busy...why can't I be busy during the day as well? It'll take my mind off loads of things. Oh well, it's nearly 4pm. Gotta drop by 7-11 for some fags. Till next time... 

Blog Blog Blog...*yawn*

The reason why I haven't been updating is because I have absolutely nothing to blog about. There're currently no emotions running through me neither is there anything bothering me..at the moment. So on this rare occassion that I'm updating is because I've got nothing else better to do and there's nothing great to watch on TV. Oh shit...I just remembered..Amazing Race!!! Oh forget it...I hate catching shows halfway so I might as well wait for the repeat later on in the a.m. I hope I don't forget then.

Anyway, met up with Sharon just now for some shopping at Cat's Whiskers at Hartamas and then later on had drinks at Strudel's. It was good catching up with her at long last after endless empty promises of how we'd meet up on the weekends. Sorry babe, I know it's my fault...forgive me, right? Anyway, Sharon is the longest friend I've known. I've known her since we were in kindergarten and we carpooled to school together. After going off to Singapore and then she to Melbourne, we sort of lost touch but not completely of course so it's a good thing we're in the same country again. We should do it more often, yeah babe?

Tomorrow is going to be a pretty busy day. Gotta take Hermes to the vet for his monthly jabs then gonna meet up with Mel for lunch. After that, who knows? Probably will sit around Starbucks or Coffee Bean bitching about everything under the sun. Haha. Will update on that soon. I do hope I'll be able to wake up in time for the vet. I've been waking up about 1 something in the afternoon for the past few weeks.  Gotta start adjusting my biological clock so that I'll be prepared when college starts in August. *sigh*  

Nothing else to yak about now so I'm just gonna end this right here. Sorry to have bored you to tears, whoever actually reads my entries. Tata for now...

Haven't done...
 
It's been a boring week as usual. The only thing that made this week stand out from past weeks is that I finally ventured into Zouk. It was my first time there and on Thursday it was Ghetto Heaven, I think. Whatever it's called, it was Ladies Night and that means R&B so I didn't really enjoy myself. The only thing great about it was the company. Mel came to pick me up about 10.30pm and we had to wait for nearly an hour for Hui-Ni to arrive. Luckily, we didn't have to wait long before Shirley and Li Li arrived. It was good seeing them again after such a long time. It's been years actually, ever since I left for S'pore to study in '97 so we had a sort of girl's night out. A much anticipated night cos I seriously cannot recall the last time we did that so that was all good. Nothing much to say about Zouk right now. It seemed pretty small compared to the one in S'pore but oh well, I might change my mind after going there again for some house music instead of R&B. Saw Sharon, Jun-Yi and Xie Lynn there as well as other Cempakans so it was like a mini  Cempakan night. Haha.
 
Managed to buy myself a 500 piece jigsaw puzzle and 2 books to occupy myself with the rest of the week so hopefully I won't be too bored. Had some yummy brownies for dessert with my dad just now and had a good heart-to-heart talk with him which is something I hardly do nowadays. So I'm pretty contented right now, sleepy but fully awake. Some retail therapy to look forward to in a few hours with Mel. Haven't done that in awhile as well. 
 
I hope I can fall asleep soon. It's been raining the whole day and it's just started to pour again so the weather is perfect to sleep in and the only thing lacking is someone warm to cuddle up next to. *sigh* Nite nite...
 

Whenever/Wherever

I get a sense of liberation everytime I take out the car and drive with no point of destination. Whatever time of day, ok not during rush hour, whenever I'm feeling lost and mellow and down in the dumps, which is a constant feeling nowadays, I just get into my car and drive. With my handy fags in tow, with the right CD in the player and with the aircond on at full blast, I just don't think about anything and drive to nowhere. Like today for example, I ended up following a car all the way to Puchong and then after realising I don't know my way around Puchong and without a Touch & Go card, I had no choice but to start paying attention so I don't get myself lost. And during the whole excursion all by myself, I got to thinking of all the people that's made such an impact in my life. Those whom I'm close to now as well as those people who are my Hi/Bye pals and also those I see once every few years.

Distance be it far or near doesn't matter nowadays as long as we have the heart to keep in touch now and then. That's good enough for me. I'm used to being alone and having no one to turn to. I'm used to the feeling of remorse and regret for all the wrong decisions I've made in life. I'm used to having people feel sorry for me and sometimes pitying me and at times not knowing what to say or do to console me. But to those people who always manages to put a smile on my face, who manages to be there for me although I've been a real pain in the ass and those that simply don't need to say anything but just sit by me and lend me a shoulder to lean/cry/rant on, these are the people I can really call my friends. The number may not be large but the support and love I get from them is enough to keep me sane.

Melody, Badriyyah, Ju, Kit Yi, Velene, Adlee, Adeline, Siew Yen, Melvin, Keith, Sharon, Melissa, Jac, to you I owe my deepest and most heartfelt love for all the support you've given me in everyway possible. Thank you for just being there whenever...

It's raining MEN

Monday was a pretty boring day. Siew Yen came to pick me up after her class and we then headed off to Coffee Bean for some much needed bitch fest. Our conversation revolved around men, men and more men. We came to the conclusion that no man is worth our time. If we have done our part by being the best friend/lover and they have yet to fully appreciate us for it, then that's not our lost. I know talk is cheap and what has been said can easily be forgotten, but I will never forget that our self-worth is the most important thing and no one can tell us otherwise.

These past few entries of mine has been pretty depressing and reading back, I find myself thinking that this person i.e myself has some issues against the opposite sex. After going through some pretty bad experiences in the past I've just gotten stronger. However much shit I've gone through just for a guy, well I think the fault lies in no one else but myself for being just too plain stupid and naive and gullible and too trusting. I gave 110% of myself to a guy only to be disappointed in the end. I've been taken granted for, made use of, ridiculed and betrayed all by men I had put so much faith in but it's only made me more aware. I have not come out of it a full blown feminist, neither has it made me angry and bitter but I believe all these experiences has taught me to appreciate myself more and to love myself for who I am and never to change just because a guy doesn't approve.

I have some pretty great male friends who have only made it even more simple for me to realise that not all men are pricks. I still have hope and I know I'm not the only one to feel like this. There're much worse things to be concerned about so I think its time to stop dwelling in the past and to move on. I'm looking forward to the future. To new beginnings and to happier times.

Another Boring Sunday

So much for being such an active person on weekends. The list of things I wanted to get done can be discarded. Did not manage to get tickets for Spiderman 2. Queued for a miserable 20 minutes all by my lonesome when suddenly it was announced that tickets for Spidey2 was all sold out. The 12 smth shows had tickets still available but only 3 rows from the screen so screw it, I'm not gonna risk having a neckache for a show that can be watched anytime withtin the next 2 weeks and there's always the pasar malams anyways.

I did manage to go for the car show though and one thing's for sure, it's not worth my RM25!! The good thing is I didnt have to pay for it. None of us did. We managed to sneak in free. Hehehhe..it's my little secret so anyone who wants to know how to get in free for future events at the MV Exhibition Centre, just msg me. Big thanks to Esmond's brother for letting us in on his little secret. Melvin, I'll send you pics as soon as I manage to find my transfer cable alright?

Headed off to Atmosphere after that and that place is still pulling in the crowd. It was so packed! It has been such a long time since I went clubbing but last night was all good. My alcohol tolerance level has dipped tremendously and only after a vodka lime and 2 glasses of Black Label, I was already feeling tipsy. Well, tipsy is an understatement because I ended up puking in the men's cubicle. Haha...hate to admit it but yes, I got drunk. Thanks to Esmond for being such a great friend and taking care of me the whole time although I was such lousy company and also for getting me in free. Will make it up to you next time by refraining from alcohol, that's a promise.

After about 5 hours of sleep I had to get up in time for lunch with my dad at Midvalley. Had dimsum and walked around abit after that and am now back home. Its raining so can't go to the pasar malam. Guess it's gonna be another boring Sunday evening. Euro Finals happening tonight and there'll be a street party in Telawi but as usual, no kakis. So, I'm just gonna sit back and enjoy myself cos F1 has started. Woohoo!! Ferrari rawks!!!

Busy?? Hah!

What I've been busy with the past few days:
1) Bought stuff from the MNG sale as well as undies from LaSenza
2) Steamboat at my place with my relatives after a very long time
3) Dinner with my dad at Chili's then somemore shopping at MNG
4) Bought another book to keep myself occupied the next week - Shanghai Baby by Wei Hui
5) Yamcha and more yamcha

Things to do starting tomorrow:
1) Go for the car exhibition at Mid Valley
2) Try to get tickets for Spiderman 2 (tried to get Gold Class tickets but they only had 1 seat available. question is, who buys only 1 ticket for Gold Class???)
3) Get an appointment for a haircut at Peek-A-Boo
4) E-mail my mum who's left for the States this afternoon. *sniff*
5) Start dieting so no more yamchas late at night
6) Catch Mona Lisa Smile at the Starlight movie festival with Keith

I may seem occupied with alot of things but the truth is, I'm still as bored as ever. I need something to do!!! Anything!!! Any suggestions??