Monday, January 31, 2005
I'm typing this in the dark. No, it's not because I'm too lazy to turn on the lights. I welcome the darkness. It's sort of calming and that's what I need right now. It has been a long day. Tiring, emotionally and mentally. There's just too many unwanted thoughts swimming in my head.
I'm really fed-up with these mood swings of mine. I'm amazed how my brother has tolerated me all these years. The only highlight of my day was re-reading a message from Chia, sent to me when I was at a point of desperation and lost. His words brought me back to reality, but only for just a while. And here I am, yet again in one of my moods.
Yes, I do have better things to do, if you really want to know. So I shall just end now and get back to my studying. 2 tests tomorrow and I'm not prepared. What else is new?
Oh one more thing. Check this out..my brother's foray into the world of poems, and everything artistic. Be warned, it's angst-ridden..that's him for you..but I wouldn't have him any other way. My pillar of strenth, my confidante, my punching bag, Though he looks scary and repulsive, he's a great guy, with a gigantic heart. It saddens me he's filled with so much hate and anger. *sigh*
I'm really fed-up with these mood swings of mine. I'm amazed how my brother has tolerated me all these years. The only highlight of my day was re-reading a message from Chia, sent to me when I was at a point of desperation and lost. His words brought me back to reality, but only for just a while. And here I am, yet again in one of my moods.
Yes, I do have better things to do, if you really want to know. So I shall just end now and get back to my studying. 2 tests tomorrow and I'm not prepared. What else is new?
Oh one more thing. Check this out..my brother's foray into the world of poems, and everything artistic. Be warned, it's angst-ridden..that's him for you..but I wouldn't have him any other way. My pillar of strenth, my confidante, my punching bag, Though he looks scary and repulsive, he's a great guy, with a gigantic heart. It saddens me he's filled with so much hate and anger. *sigh*
