Thursday, July 14, 2005
I woke up at 10 this morning after 9 hours of sleep and I still managed to take a 3 hour nap in the afternoon. Not bad considering the lack of sleep these past weeks and that I can't nap. But I feel like shit now. So damn lazy and lethargic. You should see the way I'm typing this, lying down on the couch with the earphones plugged in and the laptop propped up on a pillow. And I stayed home the whole day too. I'm so proud of myself. Not.
Someone's making me all emotional and vulnerable and I don't know what to do about it. I somehow know what should be done but I'm too scared I'll be making the wrong decision yet again. But then that's the story of my life so I guess I'll never know unless I go ahead with it. I tend to put things off until it's too late to confront the issue so we'll just see what happens within the next few weeks.
I hate being put in this kind of situation. I'm never satisfied with the littlest gestures because I know I deserve more than this. And for whatever reason you're staying away, you're slowly but surely pushing me away. Why bother coming up with all sorts of lame excuses? Do you think I'll continue to keep quiet and let you push me around like this? Don't ever try to underestimate me just because I let you get away with it. I, like any other human being, have feelings so it's time you start remembering that. I just hate this.
Oh a note to Jace, whenever you do get to read this, I hope you have a great time in Hong Kong. I wish I could do what you did. Wake up in the morning and decide there and then to go on a holiday just because you thought the weekend was going to be boring. Heheh you never fail to impress me, you know that? Take good care and have a fabulous time.
Someone's making me all emotional and vulnerable and I don't know what to do about it. I somehow know what should be done but I'm too scared I'll be making the wrong decision yet again. But then that's the story of my life so I guess I'll never know unless I go ahead with it. I tend to put things off until it's too late to confront the issue so we'll just see what happens within the next few weeks.
I hate being put in this kind of situation. I'm never satisfied with the littlest gestures because I know I deserve more than this. And for whatever reason you're staying away, you're slowly but surely pushing me away. Why bother coming up with all sorts of lame excuses? Do you think I'll continue to keep quiet and let you push me around like this? Don't ever try to underestimate me just because I let you get away with it. I, like any other human being, have feelings so it's time you start remembering that. I just hate this.
Oh a note to Jace, whenever you do get to read this, I hope you have a great time in Hong Kong. I wish I could do what you did. Wake up in the morning and decide there and then to go on a holiday just because you thought the weekend was going to be boring. Heheh you never fail to impress me, you know that? Take good care and have a fabulous time.
