Endless Ranting

My brother's pissed at me because I forced him to go to the Simple Plan concert instead of me. Hahaha. As I'm sitting at home trying desperately to finish up my Philosophy paper, there he is amongst the little children, hopefully head bopping along with the music. I'm so evil but he loves me so I guess it'll be ok when he gets back. I just msged him and he told me our stepbro's there with a girl he likes. Ooohh..my brother's presence there won't stop them from doing whatever it is they feel like doing I hope. Heheh. And by the way, my stepbro's 13. Gosh, they do start young nowadays huh? I wonder if my dad knows. Hmmm...nah I shall not be a nosy bitch. I trust my stepbro's smart enough to know what to do..unlike me.

Ok then..back to the stupid research paper on whether rapists should be castrated. Now isn't that way better than Simple Plan?

**I do not have a problem with Simple Plan. In fact, I think they've got some pretty good songs. Ok well I only like one song but that's beside the point. It's just that I've got an assignment to hand in tomorrow and I'm nowhere near done so in cases such as this, I have no choice but to sacrifice a free concert. Simple Plan rocks!! Er, that's what the little kiddies would say, right?**

Another earthquake has occured in Sumatra measuring about 8.2 on the Richter scale. Tremors were felt here in KL as Vel called asking me whether I felt my house shaking then few minutes after that, Rina messaged me online saying she thought she was going crazy because her house was shaking. I hope another tsunami doesn't result. It's just too soon. So many lives have still not been rebuilt after December 26th and now there's a possibility of another tsunami. Baby's right. The world is coming to an end soon. Aih when I wake up in the morning I hope I won't have to read any bad news. Prayers tonight..

Hmm..my mum has disappeared. As in really disappeared. She's supposed to be back from China yesterday but till now, there has been no word from her. No messages or calls telling us of her flight details or whether she'd need us to pick her up from KLIA. Nada, zilch, absolutely no effing news. Should I be worried? No one else seems to be. My aunt says to wait till tonight. Well, it's nearing half past 9. That leaves 3 more hours till it's considered Tuesday. My brother is more concerned about making it for his 'silat' class than wondering what's happened to her. So I guess I shouldn't be too worried? Aih...she'll be back anyway and before I know it, she'll be packed and gone again.

Oh btw, I'm playing chaperone to my stepbro and one of his friends tomorrow for the Simple Plan concert. I'm going to be bored stiff and probably stick out like a sore thumb because the majority of Simple Plan fans are probably high school kiddies. Ok maybe I shouldn't call them kiddies as they are in high school afterall. Maybe because I'm feeling so aged and my baby has already started calling me an aunty that's why I'm so hesitant about going tomorrow. *sniff* Oh well, I get to go to a free concert so no complains there. Who cares if I'm going 'alone' and know only 2 Simple Plan songs? Whatever it is, I'm there to babysit. Hhehe. Wonder how my bro feels about having his older sister there.

Ok enough rambling. I've got an assignment I need to try to get done by Wednesday. Have a good week everyone..April Fool's Day is on Friday and I doubt I'll be blogging by then so have a great one.

I've made one mistake too many. There're so many times in a day where I question myself and my beliefs, never knowing whether I'm doing the right thing or saying the right thing. Then, there is that tiny little voice in my head, also known as my conscience, that never stops telling me what I'm doing is so wrong. I listen, yet I continue indulging, forever giving in to temptation. I know I'm going to end up in hell. Forget about repenting, forget about changing my way of life, I don't believe I am capable of or strong enough to do that. God may be there waiting for me to ask for forgiveness yet I cannot bring myself to doing so because I know deep in my heart, I'll never change. This is the way I am, good or bad, only I am responsible for my actions. So what if people judge? Who cares if they bitch behind my back? God knows I'm guilty of all that as well so who I am to complain? That is why I am accepting my punishment with open arms. I knew all along the day will come when I can no longer look at myself in the mirror because I've been asking for it all along. I am so dead..so so dead. Punish me and leave me be, please. That's all I ask of you.

Pics as promised..be patient though as it may take awhile to load.


Sophia & Chris, both so cute


Crystal has one cool job


Sophia, all obliging


frame-worthy, yes?


flashback to the Taylors years


our 3rd all girl pic of the night

A girl's night out is indeed something to look forward to. The two bfs shall be included as one of the girls as tonight has proven. Last week was spent with my high school friends and tonight was spent with friends from college and it was pure fun right from the start. It has been nearly 2 years since Velene and I met up with Sophia but not a thing has changed. She's still as cute and hyper as ever. Pics will be up another time. I'm too lazy to do it right now.

Is it me or has this week just dragged on and on? Finals start on the 16th and for the first time, I'm eagerly awaiting it so that once it's over, I can fly off to see him. That day will come soon enough. Yay!! Ok..time to sleep. 9am class and I've a feeling I won't be able to make it. I'll try anyway...

i love them both to bits!!


notice the crowd?


with the girl who made it all possible..thanks babe!!


i still can't get over it..notice his hands *swoon*


from a newspaper clipping to this..don't try to comprehend it


they both have killer dimples..hehe


i think Mel looks so much better....


the perfect ending..

More pics to come..tonight!!

Oh my gosh. Last night's concert was indescribable. I had the best time. It was a stellar performance by everyone. The artists who performed who were simply amazing were Boyz II Men, Wyclef Jean, even the Backstreet Boys. Lauryn Hill was...I cannot find any words to describe her performance. Even the local artists were pretty good especially Sheila Majid. There were loads of surprise presenters such as Paula Abdul, 2 N'Sync members, Bai Ling, Michelle Yeoh, so many more. It was definitely worth my RM352. The concert started about 7.45pm and ended somewhere close to 3am. At least I think it did because we left halfway through the Black Eyed Peas' performance for the after party tents.

Oh my God, I will be eternally grateful to Hui-Ni for giving us the passes. We took pictures with Nick Carter, Alex Yoong and Anuar Zain..Mel got one with Bai Ling. Saw so many celebrities but didn't dare approach all of them for pictures. Soong Ai Ling looks much taller in person, Camelia was stunning, Jojo Struys looked gorgeous last night, Gloria Ting so so so deserving of her Miss Malaysia title, Nick Carter was so much better looking in person, Black Eyed Peas were as hyper as on stage, and my favorite journalist, Kee Hua Chee was dressed as flamboyant and striking as ever.

The only bad thing about the concert was the horrible sound system. And the long intervals between performances. And Nicholas Tse only sang one song. Though I don't understand Chinese I just love looking at him. Perform, that is. Hehe. Oh and the fact that my batteries died on me yet again once we entered the hall. Hmm..I'll just post some pics of us before entering and the rest when Mel sends them to me. Aaaarrgghhhh....I can't wait for my Nick Carter pic....it was so good having his arm around us....*shudders* To Mel & Sharon, I can't think of two better people to be with last night..you guys are the best!!!

And so after a busy week filled with assignments and quizzes I've finally got some time to sit in front of the notebook and continue watching SATC. Watching it gets me all excited about visiting New York in May. I can't wait for that although it's going to be an expensive week for sure.

I'll be in the States from the end of April till early-June so if any of you wants me to get anything specific, pass me your shopping list and cash!! No money, no talk. I can't even afford to shop for myself let alone for you guys so..being such nice, understanding friends that you are, I'm sure you won't think I'm one selfish bitch, right? Joyce sweetie wants me to get her a L.A.M.B bag and she's also gotten an address for me so I don't need to search high and low for the shop. So people, you know what to do...shopping list, money and address.

Oh boy..I love holidays. Another 41 days to go. Yipeee!!!! Abit too soon asking for your shopping lists but I'm giving you guys ample time to figure out whether you need anything and to save up the money to hand over to me. Hahah..US dollars people!!! Ringgit is no good there and I'm too lazy to go exchange it for you. Don't worry, I'll be back with souvenirs for the people I love most. You know who you are..

Zoukfest pics are finally up!!!


4 of us squashed behind on the way up to Genting is not a good idea but we look fine, don't we? ok maybe because we weren't in motion at that time


Velene beautifying herself, SY halfway done getting made-up before I interrupted her


posing with my 2 lovelies


and of course we have shots of us not posing..


with my Velene and don't ask me what SY was doing standing on the bed..no, she wasn't high on anything


my 2nd 'sis'..after Velene of course..hehe


the 2Vs


doesn't she look oh so hot???


LaiKwee was begging us to let him use the room for God knows what..


finally we made it in..after an hour of near suffocation


let's count how many people were using their camera phones..


Esmond & I..he looks too wide-eyed..must be covering up for something


yet another shot of the 2 lovebirds


hehe..Vic couldn't help butting in for this shot..

Adeline, these are just for you..now why did you have to leave so soon?? Hope we'll get the chance to rave/club/drink together sometime soon, yeah? Missing you like crazy...

A charity concert held in aid for the tsunami victims right here in KL.

Artiste line-up so far:
-Backstreet Boys
-Black Eyed Peas
-Boyz II Men
-Lauryn Hill
-Wyclef Jean
-Sheila Majid
-Anuar Zain
-Dayang Nurfaizah
-Innuendo
-Jacky Chan
-Nicholas Tse
-Yumiko Cheng

Click here for ticketing info.

I'll be there with my darling Mel who called today urging me to go. Sharon, please try to make it? And let me know asap so I can go get the tickets yeah? A great way to start off a weekend, isn't it? Can't wait till next Friday..

I haven't seen my mum since Friday. She's leaving soon, that I know and yet she's hardly at home. Isn't she supposed to spend more time with her kids? Doesn't she want to spend more time with us? She's been back for slightly more than a month and I've seen her probably a total of 10 times. Ok maybe more. Whatever it is, she's nowhere to be seen and I have no idea where she is. I don't even know whether she's been home the past few days. Owning a handphone means nothing to her because she never hears it ring neither does she read her messages. Maybe she's deliberately avoiding my calls because she knows I'll start interrogating her. Am I wrong in questioning her? She says we're old enough to take care of ourselves and she need not be around all the time. That I understand but what about spending some quality time with us before she packs up and leaves again? That's the part I do not get. What's wrong with us that she chooses to spend her time elsewhere with someone else? It gets worse when her friends start calling the house and asking me where she is. It's embarrassing when I don't even know where my mum is. I obviously cannot say I haven't seen her in a few days because then she'll get pissed at me and start blaming me. What kind of relationship is that anyway? She's back in KL yet she still feels so far away. I miss her yet at times I wish she never came back.

So packed that we queued up for nearly an hour just to get in. Loads of pretty people to watch, lots of familiar faces, weather was nice but too cold for my liking, couldn't appreciate the music that much, hardly danced, don't like beer so didn't drink, bumped into people I haven't seen in a while, saw a few people I didn't want to see, kept thinking of baby and how we met at the toilets during the Salem rave..haha..it was a good night all except for a minor harassment. Am exhausted now. I tend to get all excited about raves in Genting then end up pretty disappointed. Last night was fun only because of the company. Pics soon..

Zoukfest happening tomorrow!!! Updates and pics after the weekend. Too excited to blog now.

What a horrible day I've had so far. Got up only to realise I had another 5 minutes before class started. I got there 15 minutes later and the lecturer chose of all days today to lock the door to deter latecomers. So there I was, with no credit in my hp, wondering whether I should wait for the break so I can sneak into class. Thank God my brother called for a cigarette break at that time. Yes, I am quitting. Slowly but surely. I can hear all those snickers coming especially from Vic. Anyways, decided to go buy credit for my hp only to realise I left my wallet at home. Thank God they ran out of the RM30 reload card. But that meant I couldn't leave college either because I had no money for parking. No wallet, no credit, no where to go, no one to waste time with, I was stranded.

And I was sweating. I'm not going to cover up and say that females don't sweat, they glow because I really don't give a shit. I was sure as hell sweating and in desperate need of water. Unless you're overseas, you won't know how seriously hot the weather has been these past few months. It's unbearable. Being in college wasn't helping so I went and waited in the car. Pathetic I know but I couldn't think of anywhere else to wait. I was too hot and bothered to think about anything anyway.

And now I'm back home, still hot, still sweating. I think God is punishing me but I won't say why. Some things are better left unsaid. I hope tomorrow will be a better day but I seriously doubt it. Presentation's tomorrow and none of us are prepared. We didn't even prepare any slides. We don't even know who's going to say what when. And I hate public speaking. I seriously loathe it. Hahahha..tomorrow's going to be a looooong day, that's for sure.