Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Some pictures from last night's BBQ. Wanted to pose up some pics from last weekend's steamboat as well but Vel couldn't find her transfer cable. Next time then. Happy Merdeka all!!
the main 'chef' of the night
Sha with his corn
Marcus waiting rather impatiently for his food
LaiKwee showing SiewYen how it's done
taking matters into her own hands
nothing stops us from being cam-whores
Thomas & Sha with THE pose
one big happy family
just the girls
the main 'chef' of the night
Sha with his corn
Marcus waiting rather impatiently for his food
LaiKwee showing SiewYen how it's done
taking matters into her own hands
nothing stops us from being cam-whores
Thomas & Sha with THE pose
one big happy family
just the girls
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
No driving down to town just to catch the fireworks. Not this year. Instead I'm staying in tonight. Am currently waiting for some people who were supposed to be here ages ago so we could get this BBQ started. Marinated the chicken and prepared the rest of the food at 5ish, got a measly fire going, swept and mopped, but no one's here yet. Blah! Should have just relaxed and took my own sweet time. And in case you were wondering, no, I did not do everything by myself. I wish I did but I can't be relied on to start the fire. Nah ah. Where is everyone?????
Saturday, August 27, 2005
After the lengthy separation, the endless questions that's filled my mind, the acceptance of both sides by both my brother and I, the freedom that we've been accustomed to and will continue to fight for, the many nights I've laid awake wondering what would have been, the longing at times for a constant father figure, and after all the blaming and pointing fingers and finally the forgiveness, my parent's divorce will finally be finalized this weekend. With it comes a sense of relief yet there's some feeling of dissatisfaction but I know our lives will carry on as normal. In my heart, they've been divorced a long time now. The signing of papers will not affect or alter our lives in any way and we won't let it because it's just that. Papers.
The weather is comforting me right now. It's been raining the whole day today. As I'm sitting here with James Blunt singing to me 'You're Beautiful', I'm feeling rather serene and I hope this moment lasts.
The weather is comforting me right now. It's been raining the whole day today. As I'm sitting here with James Blunt singing to me 'You're Beautiful', I'm feeling rather serene and I hope this moment lasts.
Thursday, August 25, 2005
It's tiring having to think of things to say to you when at most times I just don't or rather can't bear the sight of you.
Take it out on me all you want because that's what you've been doing for so long but don't come asking me why I've changed when I don't respond the way you expect me to.
Certain things are better left in the past, secrets sealed and locked and the key thrown away but then here you are again, raising up buried emotions that should have remained deep below.
It's pathetic how I feel what I feel when I know there's just no point in feeling anything any longer because you're just not worth risking for. Not anymore.
I'd rather be left alone, not having to explain my actions but then you seem to be a permanent fixture; a part of me that will never leave and I ask myself whether I'll be able to bear it when you're finally gone. The answer is no.
It always is about you, isn't it?
Take it out on me all you want because that's what you've been doing for so long but don't come asking me why I've changed when I don't respond the way you expect me to.
Certain things are better left in the past, secrets sealed and locked and the key thrown away but then here you are again, raising up buried emotions that should have remained deep below.
It's pathetic how I feel what I feel when I know there's just no point in feeling anything any longer because you're just not worth risking for. Not anymore.
I'd rather be left alone, not having to explain my actions but then you seem to be a permanent fixture; a part of me that will never leave and I ask myself whether I'll be able to bear it when you're finally gone. The answer is no.
It always is about you, isn't it?
Monday, August 22, 2005
The rave at Port Dickson has come and gone. It had its ups and downs but I'm glad I went because I needed it. A few bad points would be the lack of parking spaces which forced us to walk for about half an hour just to get to the venue, the fact that it was so dark we had to hold on to each other just so we wouldn't get lost in the crowd, music which was just alright, nothing fantastic and the ferris-wheel had cameras in each of its cages so it was a rather big turn-off knowing that people walking by could see you close-up on the big screen. Hopes of dancing away with the water lapping at my feet turned out to be a disappointment as it wasn't exactly a beach rave. Sure, there was sand but that's about the closest thing you'll get to a beach. And I knew we wouldn't be dancing by the water because I'm pretty sure the organizers wouldn't want to risk anyone drowning but I was just dreaming away ok.
The good thing was that there wasn't a queue like Genting's Zoukfest so no worries about being suffocated but maybe because we got there slightly past midnight. LaiKwee also kept on drowning us with vodka so we didn't have to line up or pay but you know what happens with alcohol and myself. Oh the other good thing was the abundance of hot bods in sight, girls and guys included. Also managed to bump into so many people but those I really wanted to meet up with couldn't be reached and were nowhere to be seen.
There were 3 people in my car on the way down to PD but only 2 on the way back to KL because poor Sophia had to drive LaiKwee's car back as the poor guy got drunk. The only thing I remember about the drive back home would be stopping just before the PD toll to throw up. I don't even remember how I got into bed later on. To sum it up, alcohol yet again saved an otherwise so-so night. Pictures much later once Sophia sends them to me.
The good thing was that there wasn't a queue like Genting's Zoukfest so no worries about being suffocated but maybe because we got there slightly past midnight. LaiKwee also kept on drowning us with vodka so we didn't have to line up or pay but you know what happens with alcohol and myself. Oh the other good thing was the abundance of hot bods in sight, girls and guys included. Also managed to bump into so many people but those I really wanted to meet up with couldn't be reached and were nowhere to be seen.
There were 3 people in my car on the way down to PD but only 2 on the way back to KL because poor Sophia had to drive LaiKwee's car back as the poor guy got drunk. The only thing I remember about the drive back home would be stopping just before the PD toll to throw up. I don't even remember how I got into bed later on. To sum it up, alcohol yet again saved an otherwise so-so night. Pictures much later once Sophia sends them to me.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
PD rave is happening this coming Saturday and for once I'm not hyped up over it. Sure, a different environment, awesome DJ line-up and all that but I'm just not in the mood. When I first heard about it I was ecstatic. Now it's just going to be another boring Saturday. It's a good thing the haze has cleared up or the rave might have been postponed so to all who are going for it, have heaps of fun. We'll see what happens between today and Saturday and whether anyone special will tempt me into going. *winks*
I heard from a friend recently that he was going to fly over to Melbourne just to surprise his gf on their anniversary and then fly straight back to KL right after the much thought of surprise.
Another friend got his sister to bring over sushi for his gf during her lunch break just because he knew it was her favorite type of food.
Someone else cleaned, cooked, bought flowers and wine, decorated the house with rose petals and adorned the room with candles, serenaded her even and it wasn't even a special occasion.
When they first told me of their plans, my insides melted because I never realised how sweet they could be. I've always known them as the goofball friend, the type of guy who would never slow down to let someone cross the road and yet they were actually capable of such knee-weakening gestures? But then after letting it sink in, I wondered whether they were just being romantic or plain stupid? Being stupid remains at the top of my list for now.
Yes, I've become rather cynical of relationships and all that comes with it. Blaming it on previous failed relationships is a factor though not the main reason. I tend to get all emotional and sentimental when I listen to certain songs with sappy lyrics, get hopeful and teary while watching romantic movies, reminisce and long for happier times when I look back at pictures of 'those' days but recently, instead of all that, I feel as if my heart has developed into a cold, hard stone. Just simply unfeeling. Therefore, don't be fooled by my warm and encouraging exterior when inside, I just don't feel a thing. Not anymore.
Another friend got his sister to bring over sushi for his gf during her lunch break just because he knew it was her favorite type of food.
Someone else cleaned, cooked, bought flowers and wine, decorated the house with rose petals and adorned the room with candles, serenaded her even and it wasn't even a special occasion.
When they first told me of their plans, my insides melted because I never realised how sweet they could be. I've always known them as the goofball friend, the type of guy who would never slow down to let someone cross the road and yet they were actually capable of such knee-weakening gestures? But then after letting it sink in, I wondered whether they were just being romantic or plain stupid? Being stupid remains at the top of my list for now.
Yes, I've become rather cynical of relationships and all that comes with it. Blaming it on previous failed relationships is a factor though not the main reason. I tend to get all emotional and sentimental when I listen to certain songs with sappy lyrics, get hopeful and teary while watching romantic movies, reminisce and long for happier times when I look back at pictures of 'those' days but recently, instead of all that, I feel as if my heart has developed into a cold, hard stone. Just simply unfeeling. Therefore, don't be fooled by my warm and encouraging exterior when inside, I just don't feel a thing. Not anymore.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
We tend to take many things for granted. One such example would be our very own beloved country. When passing by some architectural beauties we tend not to stop and appreciate it rather we speed past it, not giving it much thought. I've heard of complaints that there's nothing to do, nowhere to go, no place to visit, and so on. I admit I'm guilty of all that. I've always wanted to get away from it all. From the weather, the traffic, the people, the life, and from a myriad of other things that I simply cannot think of a good reason to stay. Besides the food, of course. But that's a totally different matter right now.
Uncle Bob's brother and family's visit here in the coming days have definitely awakened me to the sights and wonders of KL as we've been delegated the task of bringing them around and showing them the best or not of KL and beyond. Places at the top of my head would be the KL Twin Towers and the newly opened Convention Centre, Petaling Street, Kuala Selangor for the fireflies, Putrajaya, the Thean Hou temple, maybe to Genting, and to Melaka for the food and its historic charm. In addition to all that, we might bring them to the Royal Selangor Pewter factory or whatever it's known as to let them dabble in some arts and crafts. But is that all? I'm pretty sure there're many more places to visit and many more things to do. Right?
I have the easy task though. I'm to show the 20 somethings the KL nightlife and there's not much to think about there. Jalan SI/Asian Heritage Row/Bangsar/Hartamas? Deciding where is the only difficult thing for me. :) Despite all that, I still have the urge to get away from it all. With the haze going on, though it was so much better today, I especially want to run away right now!
Uncle Bob's brother and family's visit here in the coming days have definitely awakened me to the sights and wonders of KL as we've been delegated the task of bringing them around and showing them the best or not of KL and beyond. Places at the top of my head would be the KL Twin Towers and the newly opened Convention Centre, Petaling Street, Kuala Selangor for the fireflies, Putrajaya, the Thean Hou temple, maybe to Genting, and to Melaka for the food and its historic charm. In addition to all that, we might bring them to the Royal Selangor Pewter factory or whatever it's known as to let them dabble in some arts and crafts. But is that all? I'm pretty sure there're many more places to visit and many more things to do. Right?
I have the easy task though. I'm to show the 20 somethings the KL nightlife and there's not much to think about there. Jalan SI/Asian Heritage Row/Bangsar/Hartamas? Deciding where is the only difficult thing for me. :) Despite all that, I still have the urge to get away from it all. With the haze going on, though it was so much better today, I especially want to run away right now!
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Don't understand why the pics appear so far below this text. Been experimenting with some HTML codes since I got back and it's not making things easier on my eyes especially with the haze going on and all. Today was especially bad. I can still smell the smoke even with all the doors closed, it feels so hot and stuffy, my eyes keep tearing, my body feels weak, etc. I need to escape. Anywhere's fine as long as there's no haze, please!
Anyway, the pics below were taken when in Cream for one of Tempo's events. Scroll all the way down because I don't know why there's such a big gap. Despite constant pleas to Steven and Sha for help, it's still like this. Big thanks anyway guys. I know I'm clueless when it comes to anything IT related.
Anyway, the pics below were taken when in Cream for one of Tempo's events. Scroll all the way down because I don't know why there's such a big gap. Despite constant pleas to Steven and Sha for help, it's still like this. Big thanks anyway guys. I know I'm clueless when it comes to anything IT related.
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Monday, August 08, 2005
I just spent the last hour burning my downloaded albums into CDs. Yes, I have that much time to waste as he's being a prick by calling to wake me up from my much needed sleep, then going on and on about how I shouldn't be wasting a perfect afternoon away when I could be out with him doing nothing. Then after I've showered and changed, I call him only to find out he's helping his friend with some moving so I should go do something productive while waiting for him. Productive huh? Well I am blogging. :) Ok maybe I shall go read the papers or teach Hermes some new tricks or maybe even clean up my room. What a way to spend a Monday afternoon..I'm so bored!!!
Sunday, August 07, 2005
As I hoped, we had a fun-filled weekend indeed. Attended the Sunrise Jazz Festival at Mt Kiara, met up with KitYi & Leon in town, clubbed, got pissed drunk, hung out at her hotel to sober up but failed, had farewell tea with HangYen who's leaving for UK next week, went to check out the new convention centre where the PC fair was being held, seafood dinner at Tropicana, and finally am back at home to get some much needed shut-eye. I love my Kit so much it hurts so bad that she's gone back to S'pore. As I'm blogging, it's obvious I have not gone back with her despite much persuasion and tempting on their part. I'll probably take a drive down this weekend if everything works out since it's my final week to live it up before classes begin on the 15th. Some pics below..
Sunrise Jazz Festival, Friday
Shelley Leong enthralling the crowd
the view from where we were
Velene & Adeline
with Vel
Coffee session with Kit, Saturday
Velene & I
with my darling Kit
the girls
Leon & Kit
After Zouk
the best way to sober up is to be a cam-whore :P
the more I look at him, the more he looks like Wang Li Hom
CheeWei & Kit
3 of us have been close friends for nearly 8 years
Hang Yen's farewell at KLCC, Sunday
with the babe who's going back to do her PhD in Law..respect!!!
just us
On another note, I just got a call from my mum's bf informing me that he has just gotten the iPod for me. My very own iPod mini..in pink too!! Despite loving the colors pink and silver, I settled for the pink because the one in silver looks rather plain. Ooh boy I can't wait for Tuesday to play with my new toy. *claps hands happily*
Sunrise Jazz Festival, Friday
Shelley Leong enthralling the crowd
the view from where we were
Velene & Adeline
with Vel
Coffee session with Kit, Saturday
Velene & I
with my darling Kit
the girls
Leon & Kit
After Zouk
the best way to sober up is to be a cam-whore :P
the more I look at him, the more he looks like Wang Li Hom
CheeWei & Kit
3 of us have been close friends for nearly 8 years
Hang Yen's farewell at KLCC, Sunday
with the babe who's going back to do her PhD in Law..respect!!!
just us
On another note, I just got a call from my mum's bf informing me that he has just gotten the iPod for me. My very own iPod mini..in pink too!! Despite loving the colors pink and silver, I settled for the pink because the one in silver looks rather plain. Ooh boy I can't wait for Tuesday to play with my new toy. *claps hands happily*
Friday, August 05, 2005
Woke up with a bloody nose this morning. Ok after reading that first sentence, it sounds as if I suddenly woke up with a nose like as if it's something uncommon. Jeez, forgive me for being so lame ok. Anyway I went back to sleep with tissue stuck up my left nostril only to find out when I woke up much later that I've stained my pillow. I guess it's a reminder that I need more water what with the haze going on and all. And so I stayed at home today. The whole day too. I'm so proud of myself. Busied myself with SATC DVDs and downloaded The Interpreter. It's such a great movie only because of Sean Penn and Nicole Kidman.
The weekend is going to be a fun-filled one. I'm going to make sure of that because KitYi will be in KL. Booked her a room at The Concord because every other hotel is either fully booked or too expensive. She's asked me to go back with her to Spore on Sunday since it's their National Day on Tuesday but the lack of cash is posing a serious problem. Would S$100 be enough for 2 days in Spore? Food and lodging will be taken care of because I'll be staying with her so that leaves bus and MRT fare and a tiny bit of shopping. Ok scratch the shopping and I think I will survive. But I've got so many things to save up for, the last thing I need is another holiday albeit a drive across the Causeway. There's the PD rave at the end of the month, the iPod mini I've convinved my mum's bf to get for me from US, the treatment package, the hair straightening which I have to religiously do once a year and my 3rd and final tattoo. I know, I know, I can skip all that so I won't be so broke so soon.
Decisions, decisions...I hate having to worry about money all the time. I should be more thrifty right? Ok I shall give it more thought after a good night's sleep.
The weekend is going to be a fun-filled one. I'm going to make sure of that because KitYi will be in KL. Booked her a room at The Concord because every other hotel is either fully booked or too expensive. She's asked me to go back with her to Spore on Sunday since it's their National Day on Tuesday but the lack of cash is posing a serious problem. Would S$100 be enough for 2 days in Spore? Food and lodging will be taken care of because I'll be staying with her so that leaves bus and MRT fare and a tiny bit of shopping. Ok scratch the shopping and I think I will survive. But I've got so many things to save up for, the last thing I need is another holiday albeit a drive across the Causeway. There's the PD rave at the end of the month, the iPod mini I've convinved my mum's bf to get for me from US, the treatment package, the hair straightening which I have to religiously do once a year and my 3rd and final tattoo. I know, I know, I can skip all that so I won't be so broke so soon.
Decisions, decisions...I hate having to worry about money all the time. I should be more thrifty right? Ok I shall give it more thought after a good night's sleep.
Monday, August 01, 2005
Does alcohol really quell depression? Sure it makes you feel all tingly and there's a lightness in the head but then emotions start to get the better of you and it's then that it's so much easier to cry or laugh. And cry I did while having girl talk with Kelly and SiewYen at the Loft. And for all the wrong reasons too. I'd rather drink and enjoy myself instead of wasting my energy shedding tears. It's so not worth it! I hope my cousin's start of a new job with Marlboro will keep him distracted enough not to think of her anymore. Now, where can I find my distraction?
Anyway, pics from Saturday night will be up tomorrow or something. Vel, will send them to you when I see you or Vic online yeah. And to flush, thank you for the invites.
